Things don't happen to me, but for me

We struggle to accept that in life, things don't happen to us but for us. What do I mean by that?

Whenever something happens to us that we don't desire we think we are unlucky or it's unfair, why me, that type of thing. But everything that happens is here to teach us and show us where we have work to do.

I will give you an example of this that I have observed in my own life in the last year. Each Autumn, I'd be hit by SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder), I'd start using my SAD lamp, SAD alarm clock and take Vit D and once I adjusted after about 2-3 weeks I could stop all that and I'd be fine for the rest of the Autumn/ Winter season.

But in the last year alone, I have had three separate SAD flare ups. First one was last January after I came back home from a month in Australia, second one was last Autumn and last one I have just 'come back from'. The first one I should have expected after a big dose of Australian sun, second one I expected but it was still very hard but this one just now was a shock. I know why I got it though, I stopped taking my Vit D just before Christmas as I thought I was fine now.

Now all three of them can be explain however in previous years I would only get one a year despite stopping Vit D tablets after adjusting and also spending two other Christmas' in Australia (2017 and 2018). So why was this last year so different? What was the other reason for getting SAD three times?

Each time I get SAD, it feels like a depression to me. I had suffered from a depression for many years so I know exactly how debilitating it is.

I have done a lot of healing these past few years to dig myself out of my rock bottom. And each time I got SAD, I'd be in complete despair thinking my depression was back and that I was inherently broken. Because how could I possibly be still so unwell so regularly despite ALL the healing I had done?

But there was a reason. Each time I realised I had SAD and not a depression I would be so relieved. I would take my Vit D right away and that alone would make all the symptoms go away almost instantly and life would feel so bright again.

And here lies the lesson the universe was sending me.

It was showing me that I need to stop thinking and believing I am inherently broken. Because I am not, I just need to take my Vit D throughout the whole Autumn/ Winter because we live under perpetual grey cloud here in the UK.

We need to pay attention to not only our physical bodies but our emotions too and the lessons that we are presented with each time a sickness happens FOR US. Do you see that me getting SAD three times in the last year was a blessing overall?