Day 9 of single parenting and I planned on going to bed early. I am totally exhausted but I am so eager to learn more. Every moment of my day when I am alone I want to read, watch, experiment! I started with a meditation but I couldn’t relax because I was worried I wouldn’t hear the kids through my headphones. Once downstairs and as I craved peace and quiet, watching youtube videos was too stimulating for me so I googled. I love googling, anything and everything. When I find a subject that interests me I just want to learn everything about it. I can’t remember exactly what I googled but it must have been something along the lines of - how do you know you have psychic abilities? An page came up explaining the different types of Clairs and once I read the description of a Clairsentient that was it! Head slap moment! Two head slap moments! This must be my gift, not ‘seeing’ or ‘hearing’ but ‘feeling’. My overly emotional personality was suddenly starting to make sense. It felt strangely familiar, like I always knew but just couldn’t put my finger on it. Could this be why I get easily overstimulated? Could this be the reason why I feel so many emotions all the time and there is no consistency to them? Could this explain the sudden angriness and negativity I feel at times?
My medium told me this week that there is a dog around me, small dog, most likely our old dog Ciko. As I am sitting on the sofa reading about mediumship I can see lots of movement around the floor so I am naturally wondering if that is him. At some point as I focus on one spot where I saw the movement - I start seeing ENERGY. I look around the living, it’s everywhere! It’s air but not clear, there is movement in it and lots of it. As if there are millions of tiny shiny raindrops, each one moving within its own little orbit of 2mm. My senses are heightened as I watch the energy flickering around me and then my forearms start vibrating again just like the day before. But this time it’s more like a dull ache with a vibration, a sort of numbness at the same time. And I feel this heaviness envelop me and I am aware at the same time of a movement in my hair, like someone is pulling on three hairs exactly. The hair is something I feel all the time but mostly in the garden and always thought I just had a spider in my hair :) At the same time the article on my screen is about how to recognise a deceased loved one vs your angels or spirit guides. As I read, lots of what I am experiencing is described in the article but I am unable to recognise who it is that is visiting me. They say with practice I will be able to tell.
My medium told me this week that there is a dog around me, small dog, most likely our old dog Ciko. As I am sitting on the sofa reading about mediumship I can see lots of movement around the floor so I am naturally wondering if that is him. At some point as I focus on one spot where I saw the movement - I start seeing ENERGY. I look around the living, it’s everywhere! It’s air but not clear, there is movement in it and lots of it. As if there are millions of tiny shiny raindrops, each one moving within its own little orbit of 2mm. My senses are heightened as I watch the energy flickering around me and then my forearms start vibrating again just like the day before. But this time it’s more like a dull ache with a vibration, a sort of numbness at the same time. And I feel this heaviness envelop me and I am aware at the same time of a movement in my hair, like someone is pulling on three hairs exactly. The hair is something I feel all the time but mostly in the garden and always thought I just had a spider in my hair :) At the same time the article on my screen is about how to recognise a deceased loved one vs your angels or spirit guides. As I read, lots of what I am experiencing is described in the article but I am unable to recognise who it is that is visiting me. They say with practice I will be able to tell.
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